Is There Anybody Out There?

Karl Marx

2008-11-16T17:19:00.000-08:00

Replace an economic system based on corporate greed with one based on production for human need.

I think this was John.A argument too.

How much ambition is too much!

2008-07-11T15:07:00.000-07:00

After having my first sip of Ku Soju (Korean vodka), I thought it is really dry , And I felt this is the taste of life!
To my dear E. that wants me to say I love my life, and tried real hard this morning!

A bite from home

2008-06-20T16:19:00.000-07:00

I feel home sick, but I can't admit it, so I prescribed myself to have a bite of what I used to have there, here!

Feeling comfortable in my skin!

2008-06-20T16:03:00.000-07:00

I am still adjusting, and trying to make up a life, and for the record it is not easy at all.

Going out!

2008-03-20T11:42:00.000-07:00

Maybe instead of bringing people to home to play with, we should go out and meet new people in their natural habitat ;)

Happy Norooz

2008-03-20T11:12:00.000-07:00

This year as Ehsan said it felt like our first new year together, I guess it is because back in Iran you are so busy to be with people that you forget all about yourself and Norooz Spirit. Maybe a nice moderate combination of both would be one of the blessings that someone should ask for.

I have this vision, a tree made of all ones ancestors, and I feel I want to be one of those amazing spectacular knots in this tree.

[I am not sure if this is a conservative version of my ambitious plan of becoming world's Einstein #2.]

I wanted to watch cartoon for the morning

2008-02-24T15:29:00.000-08:00

When people know you, and you know people you are at home!

Encryption Sciene Simplified (I)

2008-02-07T11:55:00.000-08:00

Keeping passwords and important information secure means keeping them encrypted, so if they are acquired illegitimately, no one can read the real content.

Over analyze

2008-01-15T22:42:00.000-08:00

As I am reading Jackie Spinner book, I feel that to make a difference in a world I have to follow my instincts rather than a tradition or what would be appropriate, so I was thinking, if I take the time out of my busy day and meet an old far friend that most probably doesn't see me as who I am would be really wrong! but as usual I did it, it was not as bad but there were some pointers that I would consider as insult like when I asked about his wife, I didn't get an answer which can be interpreted in 2 ways and I am not gonna over analyze that part and act upon that but anyway!
Now that I am gone and I am back I think I just talked about one person B.H the whole time, as if knowing him is the only highlight of past 2 years and half working in U.S.
The truth is people like mystical and you shouldn't disappoint them, people like conceptualization and again you shouldn't disappoint them and people like over achieved extra intelligence people and you shouldn't disappoint them. and shockingly people like to know and meet people who are better than themselves so make sure you convey that and never share your intemid hopes and goals but ask for theirs, don't be too enthusiastic about their ideas but rather be pessimistic.
To be continued ....

Me and Jackie Spinner

2008-01-15T22:20:00.000-08:00

Luma ... She had been reading Victoria Lancellotti's Here in This World, a collection of short stories.... about western women who had no inhibitions, no traditions to shackle the, and she wanted to be just like them.

p132 why close the broken circle

p 133 She listened to my body that was ratting me out.

p139 I was resolved- afraid, but resolved.But I also knew that I was certainly headed to a killing field. Insurgents, Marines, Soldiers, People were going to die; that was certain. Mingled with my resolve was a terrible sadness.

p145 I was there to chronicle the human side of what was happening, the people caught up in Iraq, for better or for worse.

Surprise!

2008-01-06T23:43:00.000-08:00

Again, I surprised myself, I was filling this website form, so I was supposed to enter a question and answer for it. I usually pick either first pet's name or my mother 's maiden name, here that I had a choice to put my question, it is understandable that out of simplicity I would write either of these questions, but hear this: I felt bad to prefer to put my pet's name question to mother's maiden name, interesting, huh!
Maybe I would be happy if my daughter care this much about me! But if this situation was one of those personality categorizing questioners, I could never guess that I would feel so.

Knowing myself

2008-01-06T17:36:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day in the past 15 days that I have spend less than of 1/4 of the day on watching a movie, interestingly I discovered that I am conscious on doing anything other than watching TV is time wasting.

Anyway during the past year my life experience was mainly channeled by all sort of TV shows, now this year I have decided to live my life through other channels.

Today I discovered that I don't know myself much, specially my likes and dis-likes, is n't that very odd , specially after spending 29 years with me!?

Anyway I discovered, I prefer trips that are longer (more than 3-4) days and require flyings to short road trips.

Hiding myself!

2008-01-05T11:59:00.000-08:00

It seems that I have been too/extra cautious in revealing myself that I have become this superficial skin without much attitude, this will change :D

Working for a cause!

2008-01-05T11:55:00.000-08:00

Being paid for a job, gives you a direction, it tells you what to do for couple of hours every day, I feel it is as much bad as it is good.
BTW, working for a cause is not what I meant by feeling the edge, I don't know,may be if I be more serious and to the point in my field I could reach that edge in few years.

Feel the edge!

2008-01-05T11:42:00.000-08:00

I was having launch with couple of former colleagues, while one of them was grilling me about my new job, the others stays silent.
For now I don't want to explain, why this is a very common scene! [I should make a comic strip out of it.]

But after that launch, I decided from now on, I really want to live my life in a way that it leads to making a difference in the world.
I really care to be an important person with deep thought. I really want to feel the edge!

You said it

2008-01-03T10:38:00.000-08:00

I wanted to get design points of view, frm you, but just realized that he said it himself that for me to have a voice, I should talk and get things done! And don't wait for you to "let" me do it, sth that will never happen!

Resist the temptation!

2007-12-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

For E. buying a piece of furniture is an opportunity to express us in the face of earth, and I admit it took me a while to get on board, but now I love it,even if it means not to buy anything!

Epiphany

2007-12-30T11:17:00.001-08:00

"The best way to succeed in life is to act on the advice we give to others."

It is offical "Men are handicapped" in women 's town!

2007-12-28T15:40:00.000-08:00

I started reading "Female Brain" when I was lying in bed in Sequoia hospital, it was the very moments that I was feeling nothing make sense, but as I was reading this book I was convinced that a clear physical explanation exist for why and how we are living our lives, the explanation was just so precise and clear that made me think hmm, so every thing is directing us to places that we are at, I mean if estrogen and progesterone and the other things like solenoid that make you feel safe can control your brain and heart ( in a sentimental way) Human should be able to absolutely make another being that sort of feels exactly as its planed to feel, like real happy, real safe, real sad and such.

But the other thing that was interesting was that she [the author] was asking, why would you[a female] think that men [specifically your boy friend/husband] should behave and live his life based on your values, while he is "wired" for being something absolutely different than being wholesome, he is being wired to be aggressive and specialist only and most probably in one field.

As I learned this (by reading only 40 pages of this book) I felt much better, it is not really his fault, he is born like this, you can't blame a deaf, he just can't hear.

But what does this mean should we all become lesbian, or can we talk in their(men) language to get through them, or should we just stop thinking about men and trying to help them and instead just focus on ourselves and believe its all good, just don't try too much.

As I remember my approach was always different do what you think is right, but maybe just maybe I don't always know what is right!

For Habbe

2007-12-28T15:39:00.001-08:00

I bought this condolense card for us, just to be thankful, don't know why but I know right when you don't think, things can get real bad.

Unspokable

2007-12-28T15:32:00.000-08:00

There are so many things on my mind that I like to write about!

Friendship is made by trust in a context. The context is the history [time] and places that we share.

I like to think and weave my sentences.

We kissed and kissed and laughed and nothing felt the same again.

Ajax

2007-11-30T10:26:00.000-08:00

It was a surpise to me to hear that Ajax is only a new way / architect to use the old technologies.
Ajax is all about manipulating the HTML DOM object to represent the user interactions, and besides managing communication with the server.

I am back baby!

2007-11-30T10:20:00.000-08:00

As of Yesterday that I picked my cube in Menlo Park, I am part of a new product :D

People make me put this poem in my cube that says: " Ensanam Arezoost".

But I have a new approach, which basically is taking responsibility andbeing involved in all decision made for the product, this project is basically a good warm up for future.

You 'll read more about the technologies and decisions that we will make.

No war on Iran (1)

2007-10-02T18:47:00.000-07:00

I have decided to add this section to my blog to reflect any interesting news snippest or ideas that I hear and there.

See for yourself: I hate all Iranian!

Pain

2007-09-26T15:32:00.000-07:00

The joy of riding in a large empty parking lot, and then a bad crack sound, two fractured bone on your face.

I don't know if her prayers did this, but if only I could stop her.

Pain killers and cushions change your experience of life. plus these dumb movies that over rate the concept of pain. With pain life is so different.